Okay, yes, I just quoted Kermit’s infamous line from Sesame Street. There’s a reason I could read when I was three and those adorable muppets had a lot to do with it. But, I digress…
Kermit may have only referred to his actual body color, but there is more than one truth to his lyrical statement. It’s not easy being green. Learning new things and finding your footing in a new situation can be as much or more of a challenge to us as finding himself the same color as the leaves was to Kermit.
I am officially smack dab in the middle of my second week of library classes. While I will not concede to having bitten off more than I can chew, I will grant you that I will have to chew slowly and carefully if I intend to avoid choking. After only a week and a half I think I can already see what my greatest challenge will likely be. One might assume it would be the deadlines, the writing assignments or so many other things… Most who know me would never dream that the greatest challenge I see before me so far is the reading.
That’s right, I said the reading. Oh, not the act of reading itself. I love to read as much now as I did when I was three years old surrounded by my mountain of story books. However, leisurely reading for pleasure is very different from actively reading with purpose. Again, don’t get me wrong, I’ve always loved sitting down with a text or article, highlighters, sticky notes, and a plethora of colored pens. But when I’m reading for pleasure I can curl up in bed with a novel or kindle app on my fire phone. I can relax in the tub or find a sunny spot in the yard. That’s not exactly how you read an article for discussion or chapters from the required text.
So, yes, so far I see the most daunting obstacle before me to be the readings. This week alone there are several chapters I need to finish from a couple different texts as well as a stack of articles I’ve only thus far scratched the surface of, in addition to some lectures and discussions.
It’s certainly a challenge to spend eight hours staring at a computer screen trying to trudge my way through bibliographic records and MARC tags and databases and links. Then to come home to all that reading about more of the same. I’m not complaining. I know very well that I am the one who made my schedule. I am simply observing, reflecting, if you will. My eyes may permanently cross in my head, but I will accomplish this.
It’s just…. well… not easy being green.
I am still a new cataloger (the only one in our library) doing both copy cataloging and some original cataloging and I spend a lot of time feeling like I’m just not quite sure if I will ever wrap my head around everything. Now I’ve started these classes and I listen to these lectures and read these readings… Well I find myself with that same sort of feeling.
I keep reminding myself to take a deep breath and step out there despite my uncertainty and misgivings. What I really would like to do is blend in with the leaves like Kermit. But I also want to accomplish things. So I will just have to keep reminding myself that it’s really not so bad and that it will get better.
Unlike my beloved muppet, I will not always be green.